We're half way there... To the end of October, that is.

October is going to kick my ass. I swear. For a month that I had started with such optimism, I am now just hoping to make it out alive with everyone in one whole, healthy piece.

This weekend (10/16-10/17) holds a trip to San Francisco for Natalie, Nathan and I. We are going with my Mom and meeting with my Aunt Sue and cousins Nikki and Cara. Mom and Aunt Sue are walking a half marathon and Nikki is running it. I think they all just want a pretty Tiffany necklace put on them by sexy firefighters, but I am super proud of them! :)

As most of you know I have 2 very sick kitties. Vader is on the mend, but Obie is definitely a few days behind him. You know it is bad when you get excited that the cat that hasn't used the litter box in 3 days finally peed! A big ol' excited sigh of relief since I don't have to take him back to the vet for fluids via IV. I am a little nervous about leaving this weekend. I still have to force feed (about 2 teaspoons of food) Obie every other hour or so. If he isn't eating by early Saturday morning then he is going to be SOL for the weekend because I know that my Dad is not going to force feed him. And if Dad did force feed him it would probably send Obie into shock he'd be so freaked out. FUNZIES.   

I have been putting Natalie in her pack'n'play for naps and bedtime starting last night. I am hoping that this will help her get used to it and sleep while we are in SF. If she doesn't sleep then it is going to be a VERY long weekend for everyone involved. I've got my fingers crossed. She only woke up once last night and has napped for over an hour this afternoon. If I can get these results in SF I will be sitting pretty!

I haven't left the house all week and I am starting to feel the symptoms of my agoraphobia coming back. I've suffered from it (mildly) since I was in my twenties. I just don't want to leave the house. I have to force myself and then once I'm out I can't wait to get back. For me, the whole 5 acres is my "safe" zone, but outside of that and I start getting nervous. It gets worse the longer I stay inside and the longer I go without a day away from home so this trip to SF will do me some good in that department. I am a little panicked about it though and am glad I will have Nathan to help me make the drive. I loathe driving in SF. Especially in Simba. (Simba's my truck for those who didn't know.) I think money may be a factor too. When I get out of the house I tend to spend money and we just don't have the extra at this time. If I stay home I don't spend any money. Seems simple, but I need to find activities that aren't costly, but get me out. I've looked into Mommy and Me programs and there aren't any in the area. I'm not sure where to look next, but I will keep an eye out...

I have been inside all week because between Natalie, Vader and Obie someone/thing is always needing food, medicine, or cleaning up after. It's been a hectic week. I am kind of mad at myself at the moment. The first free time I have had all week and what do I do? I blog. Really? How about a nap? Nah, I'll just blog. *Rolls eyes at self* Oh well, I am who I am, right?

Every weekend in October is packed. This one is SF, next one is Chico to go see my cousin Jenna and her adorable little Corrine, then it is Halloween and Nathan's fund raising golf work thing. Woohoo. The first weekend in November isn't booked yet, but the one after that is my baby girl's first birthday!!! My goodness that went by fast! Well, I hear her stirring from her nap so off I better go. Have a great weekend everyone. I am so looking forward to taking Natalie to the pier to see the seals! As always I'll take a ton of pictures and post them on to her Picasa site as soon as I can. I am almost caught up to October! TTFN.